Creating Me!

A lot of people talk about not finding themselves. I am one of those people. I have said it countless times. “I haven’t found myself yet”. But I recently discovered that most people don’t always find themselves for one reason or another. Instead you need to create yourself… And to do so you just need to go after what you love.

Finding yourself means you are just letting things happen… if they happen they happen, but if they don’t you will always been lost. Creating yourself means you are deciding who you want to be, where you want to go, what you want to do… and then you do it! There is nothing to find… there is only living, loving, learning, and doing.

After many years of not knowing what to do with my life I have finally decide it is time to create me… the me I want to be! And if I try something I don’t like then oh well I learned something from it. Heck with trying tp find the one thing I am mean to do… I am going to do it all. So, starting today I am creating a new me!

Worrying vs. living

Drag your thoughts away from your troubles... by the ears, by the heels, or any other way you can manage it.

I have a hard time letting things go. If something hits my mind it is there... I can't stop worrying, I can't stop fearing, I can't stop obsessing over it. I hate this about me… Life is short.,. shorter than short. Tomorrow is never a given. Tomorrow may only exist in your dreams… dream you may not wake up from. Yet, I spend so much of my time worrying, fearing, dreading, and panicking.

I really need to learn how to just stop this and live for the moment. It is a goal of mine and I have to reach it to reach full happiness b/c if I don’t stop worrying I am going to kill myself (meaning I worry so much the stress is causing my heart to act up problems).

But how do I stop something I have done my whole life?

Love

"Love is an ideal thing, marriage is a real thing. A confusion of the real with the ideal never goes unpunished."

I find this to be very true with a lot of people. They are so many people out there that want this ideal life. You know the one… A perfect husband, 2 kids, a cute cottage house with the white picket fence and a dog.

Realistically things take time, work, etc. You have the find the "one" that can work with you to have that idea love. The only problem is, people want instant gratification... They want to start dating someone and that person be the one even if they are not. You will rush into a marriage even though the relationship is rocking just to get to an idea life that will never be real because marriage is hard and if things are perfect and if the love isn't real then you will only be punishing yourself for doing so. The marriage will more than likely fail causing you to go through the pain of a divorce, the years spent with Mr./Mrs. wrong could have been years spent finding and/or being with Mr/Mrs Right.

"Fantasy love is much better than reality love. Never doing it is very exciting. The most exciting attractions are between two opposites that never meet."

I wanted to add that quote because I feel that if you are not in your idea relationship then you should make a fantasy one. Have something great in your fantasy land would be so much more fun and better than having something bad in your realistic land. Just remember when looking for your soul mate that fantasies are just that… Fantasy! Do not make your expectations so high or lame that no one can meet then and leave you alone and unhappy.

Happy 4th of July!

Today marks the day of America's independence... The day we as Americans, declared our independence, from the Kingdom of Great Britain. We celebrate with cookouts, vacations, family get togethers, camping, just relaxing, and of course fireworks!

I hope each of you had a wonderful and safe 4th of July today!

I still suck

Okay so I have a ton of majorly awesome blog post idea but with having 4 kids it is next to impossible to blog lately! And yes if you know me and just read that you probably thought "4 kids, what?". But for the last 2+ months (9 weeks now) I have had 4 kids. We gained 2 children ages 4 and 8 months... although he will be 11 months old tomorrow! So having 4 kids 5 and under will keep you busy. And I was already busy! I do plan on starting crafty post again as I have been doing a lot of projects with the kids lately. Stay tuned because they will be up shortly!

Blog is fixed!!!

Woohoo, I have had some great blog post topic ideas but for the past month or so my blog has not worked for WEEKS now! I have tried and tried to blog but couldn't... it was so very annoying. But I am back... and very happy to be back. Let my blogging start back up!

A Randomly Rambling Post

So yes, I do randomly talk to myself... A lot actually! My friends, who have known me for years, still laugh at me because I talk to myself... and they catch me! So, since a lot of things are on my mind tonight I thought I was just make a blog post... After all I haven't made one in forever and a day.

# 1: I am still upset that 'Iron Man' by Black Sabbath was not in the movie Iron Man!!! Seriously this upsets me!

# 2: Taking the easy way out of things only makes your life boring... Yes it may be easier but life is massively boring this way and you do not learn your true strengh.

# 3: I love lighting. It is so pretty... And no matter how hard I try I just cannot get a photograph of lighting :(

# 4: Being an adult is so much more than just an age! I know people 25, 35, 45, even 55 who I would not consider an adult... Grow up people! Take responsibility for your actions... Do the right thing... Change the world for the better.

#5: I am super girl and I am here to save the world... dum, dum, dum.... Not sure why that just popped in my head but it did... so I typed it out :)

# 6: Hmmmmmm.. What is going on with my blogger? I go to publish the post and it just doesn't publish. Dang it!