Sunday, July 10, 2011


This me is the me that I can be.
The only be I can be is the me I am.
But you make it so hard to be the me
I need to be.
Why can't I just be me and you be happy?
Why is being me so hard because I care so much?
Being me is all I know to be.

Friday, July 8, 2011

All I can say is... WTH?

First you need to visit this site to understand my ramblings this time...

I do not understand this at all. First I think the media needs to change the focus of this story. Instead of focusing on this overweight women who is doing this to herself just for money you need to be focusing on the fact that her child is probably being neglected. And by probably I mean in my eyes the kid totally is, but I am not there, so I could be wrong.

If she is needing a 4 year old to feed her (why the heck can't she lift her arms and feed herself?), prepare her foods, bath herself, etc then more than likely the little girl does these things for herself as well as her mother... And a 4 year old preparing foods, etc is not okay in my eyes. A 4 year old needs to have a childhood and caring for her mother is taking that a way from her. Why has no one stepped in and taken this little girl away?

Thursday, July 7, 2011

Creating Me!

A lot of people talk about not finding themselves. I am one of those people. I have said it countless times. “I haven’t found myself yet”. But I recently discovered that most people don’t always find themselves for one reason or another. Instead you need to create yourself… And to do so you just need to go after what you love.

Finding yourself means you are just letting things happen… if they happen they happen, but if they don’t you will always been lost. Creating yourself means you are deciding who you want to be, where you want to go, what you want to do… and then you do it! There is nothing to find… there is only living, loving, learning, and doing.

After many years of not knowing what to do with my life I have finally decide it is time to create me… the me I want to be! And if I try something I don’t like then oh well I learned something from it. Heck with trying tp find the one thing I am mean to do… I am going to do it all. So, starting today I am creating a new me!

Worrying vs. living

Drag your thoughts away from your troubles... by the ears, by the heels, or any other way you can manage it.

I have a hard time letting things go. If something hits my mind it is there... I can't stop worrying, I can't stop fearing, I can't stop obsessing over it. I hate this about me… Life is short.,. shorter than short. Tomorrow is never a given. Tomorrow may only exist in your dreams… dream you may not wake up from. Yet, I spend so much of my time worrying, fearing, dreading, and panicking.

I really need to learn how to just stop this and live for the moment. It is a goal of mine and I have to reach it to reach full happiness b/c if I don’t stop worrying I am going to kill myself (meaning I worry so much the stress is causing my heart to act up problems).

But how do I stop something I have done my whole life?

Tuesday, July 5, 2011


"Love is an ideal thing, marriage is a real thing. A confusion of the real with the ideal never goes unpunished."

I find this to be very true with a lot of people. They are so many people out there that want this ideal life. You know the one… A perfect husband, 2 kids, a cute cottage house with the white picket fence and a dog.

Realistically things take time, work, etc. You have the find the "one" that can work with you to have that idea love. The only problem is, people want instant gratification... They want to start dating someone and that person be the one even if they are not. You will rush into a marriage even though the relationship is rocking just to get to an idea life that will never be real because marriage is hard and if things are perfect and if the love isn't real then you will only be punishing yourself for doing so. The marriage will more than likely fail causing you to go through the pain of a divorce, the years spent with Mr./Mrs. wrong could have been years spent finding and/or being with Mr/Mrs Right.

"Fantasy love is much better than reality love. Never doing it is very exciting. The most exciting attractions are between two opposites that never meet."

I wanted to add that quote because I feel that if you are not in your idea relationship then you should make a fantasy one. Have something great in your fantasy land would be so much more fun and better than having something bad in your realistic land. Just remember when looking for your soul mate that fantasies are just that… Fantasy! Do not make your expectations so high or lame that no one can meet then and leave you alone and unhappy.

Monday, July 4, 2011

Happy 4th of July!

Today marks the day of America's independence... The day we as Americans, declared our independence, from the Kingdom of Great Britain. We celebrate with cookouts, vacations, family get togethers, camping, just relaxing, and of course fireworks!

I hope each of you had a wonderful and safe 4th of July today!