Fighting the endless battle!

So, it is safe to safe the best diet I have ever been on up until this point of my life is the "wisdom teeth extraction" diet... haha! But in all seriousness, I have lost 7 lbs since Monday night... That is crazy to me... Plus it puts me at a weigh I haven't been at in nearly 2 years (2 years in March). I remember my weight 2 years ago in March because I had weighed in for a friendly "biggest loser" challenge between a few friends and myself... Instead of losing I slowly started to gain weight and ended up weighing 16.5 lbs more before I stopped gaining... And that was by far the heaviest I had ever been... A weight I thought I would NEVER be! I still cannot believe I weighed that much, but I vowel today that I will never get that heavy again.

But back to the point of this post... As noted in an earlier post I have had issues with eating disorders for a while and with having my wisdom teeth removed I haven't been eating (if I make it to 300 calories for the day I am doing great!) and the weight is falling off me quickly, which only sets me up because now I do not want to eat again... Last night I ate mashed potatoes with a little gravy (120 calories) and I couldn't get over eating them... I got upset, wanted to vomit and could not let the fact that I just ate go. It ate at me for hours. Yet I only had 320 calories yesterday, so I know it was stupid to think I needed to vomit... Yet I want to reach my goal weight and know how easy it can be... if I just didn't eat! I still have a few days before I can start eating so I know its going to get harder.

~Lissa Lou

I forgot... I have pages now!

Yesterday I added two pages onto my blog... One is for my new Project 365 post and the other is about my weight loss journey... I decided to do the pages instead of just add post here so it wasn't to repetitive and if you wanted to just see photos, you could easily do so without going through all of my blog post... Or if you just want dieting tips, see my struggles, my success, my workouts, etc you can without all of the other stuff.

On a side note I will keep posting some dieting post here just so my "weight loss page" is not overly lenghty, and packed together with way to much clutter on the page. With that said I wanted to give a few of my dieting thoughts for today.

"Have the courage to act on your dreams - leave behind you the internal forces that hold you back." With my new diet I am leaving behind a huge internal battle and finding my courage to live out my dreams. Dreams that I have wanted to live out for years... maybe in a lifetime but have never been able too... dreams that will complete me... dreams that needed to be lived instead of just dreamed. Are you living your dreams?


~Lissa Lou

Totally Bummed

Okay so I apparently lost my camera battery charger some time ago and have yet to find it... Where could it be? I have searched everywhere and it hasn't turned up. I am thinking I may have forgotten it at the beach back in October. This totally bums me out too because my camera battery died a week or two before Christmas and I have been using my little pocket camera for my pictures... Which of course is not as good! :) I must find my charger... MUST!

I also need to go down to my basement and clean it out... It has been a mess now for well over eighteen-months, and it needs to be clean and organized... Whatever I no longer want I will be yard-selling and that profit is going toward either our next vacation or a new camera lens... Not sure which, lol. I guess it will depend on where we decide to go to for vacation this year... It is still in debates and we really should be making a decision soon.

Oh I just realized it is Friday... YAY for Friday! Now if I can make it through today quickly so I can get on with my weekend... Although, it is not like I am actually going to do anything this weekend. Lay around and rest some more. My cheeks are still pretty swollen from having my wisdom teeth extracted.

Well I better get off here... I am going to try and get a few things done for my girl scout troop. So, thats all for now... I know boring post, but I wanted to post something since I spent weeks slacking :)

Peace, love & cupcakes,
Lissa Lou

Where in the world is Lissa Lou?!?

Lame title I know, but when I opened blogger the show/song "Where in the World is Carmen Sandiego" popped into my head, and bam my title for this post was formed.

I have been meaning to make a post every day for the few weeks, but haven't found the time or energy. I finally got around to having all 4 of my wisdom teeth extracted this week (on Tuesday Jan. 04th). Still healing... And very hungry!!! I didn't eat on Monday because I was to nervous and knew I would just get sick from eating, and I haven't been able to eat since having it done. All I know is when I weigh myself on Monday morning that scale better show a weight loss!

Now that the holidays are over and a new year year has started I have set big goals for myself... Okay, not really goals or big... but they will bring a lot of new changes to my life and make me a better person. :)

These are pretty simple changes such as getting back into my photography, crafty, camping, hiking, etc... Things that just get me out more so I am not so stressed and forgetting who I am. They are some bigger changes to be made such as losing weight, getting back to the gym, and actually following through with all of my goals, lol.

I guess that is all for now... my pain pills are starting to kick in and I think I am going to take a nap... I need a nap because haven't been sleeping so well.

Until my next post
Peace, Love and cupcakes,
~Lissa Lou :)